Now, keep in mind when you're reading this memory that it occurred when we were very much ensconced in practicing our religion - a religion that promotes chastity before marriage and is vehemently opposed to all types of pornography.
I hadn't watched any porn in years and had never really watched much of it. I was under the impression that the same was true with Jasper.
This was about 5 years ago, so the details are a bit foggy. We were living in Brooklyn at the time. I had a job that required me to awake much earlier in the morning than he did, so I often went to bed several hours earlier than him.
One morning, I woke up and heard voices coming from the living room. It totally freaked me out! What the hell was going on? Jasper was sound asleep next to me, so I decided to go check it out.
I peeked my head around the corner (the livingroom was adjacent to the bedroom in our small 1-bedroom apt), and didn't see anyone, so I ventured out further.
Imagine my surprise when I realized Jasper had just left the computer/TV on and right there in front of me were two girls gettin' busy.
I was intrigued.
Ashamed.
Horrified
Pornography was wrong!
I couldn't believe Jasper was indulging in this.
And yet...
I wanted to watch more.
But...I was pressed for time.
I shut off the video.
And went off to carry on with my morning routine - putting this to the back of my mind.
I can't remember if I confronted Jasper before I headed off to work or waited until I got home. Regardless, he apologized profusely and said he wouldn't do it anymore.
I asked how long it had been going on. I can't remember his answer.
I was probably too preoccupied secretly wishing he'd offer to watch porn with me. I remember really, really wanting to but was conflicted by also thinking about how wrong it was.
Took another 4 years or so before we ever watched porn together.
And oh! my! god! was that ever HOT.
A memory for another time, perhaps. :-*
Great post. The conflicting emotions then, and the contrast between then and now, very interesting. What on earth would your pastor think?
ReplyDeleteAnd, i'm a little dissapointed that you didn't include the link he was watching....
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Hey Lola , bet your glad that's all in the past
ReplyDeleteA54, You're pretty funny to think we'd still have a link from 5 years ago. ;) Glad you enjoyed the post.
ReplyDeleteGaz, Oh, yes, I am!
Thanks for the post, I've found that watching some porn makes me a better lover for my sexy girl. It's like a pre-game hype up before the real action starts. Maybe other guys use it like that too.
ReplyDeleteI hope to read more soon.
Jack, Thanks for your comment! Jasper uses porn not only for masturbation, but also for "pre-game hype" and ideas on new things/positions. I think it does make for a better lover. And it certainly is fun to watch it together for foreplay.
ReplyDeleteWhen the man and I would watch porn together it seemed our sex play would last forever and there was not move left undone or body part untouched. Lol aww the memories
ReplyDeleteSB, Sounds like some wonderful memories. When we watch porn, we, too, seem to be able to go much longer than usual. :)
ReplyDeleteSB, Sounds like some wonderful memories. When we watch porn, we, too, seem to be able to go much longer than usual. :)
ReplyDeleteHey Lola , bet your glad that's all in the past
ReplyDeleteGreat post. The conflicting emotions then, and the contrast between then and now, very interesting. What on earth would your pastor think?
ReplyDeleteAnd, i'm a little dissapointed that you didn't include the link he was watching....
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Great anecdote. Watching porn together can be so hot. I've dated women who said that they were vehemently against it, for whatever reason; and I've dated women who loved it. Jill and I watched porn together on our fourth date. Her, I married.
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That is awesome! I've definitely come around to the whole porn thing; it has definitely led to some seriously hot fucking.
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